Alright, I've been thinking and I might as well make a list of stuff for me to do as far as Deviantart goes. It'll be kinda long.

- I owe drawings to:
Moonfeather - More specifically, my breeding pic from Ghede and Zohra from AGES ago.
Nonaut - I know I've promised him a Shi-rah and it's getting there... I just have to color the wings and the hair. This is also from AGES ago.
Myself - Another filly Daydream. The twin to Lucasbinx breeding of (she leased my mare) Saturine to Lullaby.
Myself - Finishing my pic of Quinn (Shi'Rah char of mine that everyone faves), also started AGES ago, just color his damn hair already and load the pic!
Myself - Finishing coloring the linework I started for Eider, my pegusus with King Eider duck coloring for HARPG. Yes, she'll be a breeding mare. I was thinking of creating a specific breed outta her actually and just kinda got caught up with Clinton.
Myself - Loading Pics of all the tattoos I've done in my absence

Thanks bunches everyone for being so patient, and if you think of anything I'm forgetting just send me a comment.

*EDIT* I just remembered a few more

My Boss' Dad - A picture of Secretariat. I'm working on it...
The Motel - Designing a LARGE mural to go on the back of the building. Either racehorses racing or just a horse running by itself (which would be easier than trying to paint a jockey).

Well, Hi there folks! It's been a few minutes, and alot has happened since I was last on. I can't promise to be on all the time, but I can sorta start being trusted with the computer again I guess.
Lets see, Well, I've moved... again.
AND I have a job. Actually it's kinda perfect for me because of the theme. I'm now living in Ballston Lake, in New York. Kinda close to Saratoga. I'm running a motel here in the area and living here too. The theme is Racehorses. Friggin' sweet I tell ya! I even get to be artistic too when I can find the time anyways.
So, no new art really yet, my camera is busticated. But thats alright, I'll get a new one eventually. But when I'm not busy tearing my hair out because of Terry and running to visit my other kid, Clinton. I might find some time to draw something. It's been awhile since I've even done that. All I've drawn lately is tattoos that I've done on people. The hubby being the main one. I'll have to post those pics when I get my computer hooked up to the internet here.
OMG?! New artings? and a post?! Is it the end of the world as we've known it? Probly not, but at least I'm not being punished anymore. Yes, he sorta trusts me some (no everything is STILL not hunky-dory, but we ARE working on it) because I'm working for the rent while his checks are being squirreled away so we can actually start saving some dough. Best part? I'm 10 minutes from where Clinton is. I also get to have Terry help me (sorta) do my job. I've got a few people living in the area who will watch him for me if I need a break so it makes it less stressful for me to be doing this all the time. Yuppers its a long day if Terry wakes up when the Hubby goes to work and then refuses to take a nap, but I'm adjusting to it.
I'm going to be getting a new tattoo next week as well. The hubby and I made a friend through one of our mutual friends and he also tattoos and he'll be inking me in the spots I can't reach on my own .
Yes folks, I've been tattooing myself Did some blue morning glory flowers and vines on my left arm and two triqueta (celtic triangle) knots on my lower abdomen.
Well, I'm off to bed because I have to wake up early and get cracking on cleaning my room.

My hubby banned me from the computer, so it is with a heavy heart that I must tell you all I don't know when/if I can reply to you or even look at new artwork. I'm really sorry to all of my friends for my silence, it's just that I need to work things out a bit. I won't be gone forever. Just for a long while. Hopefully in the future I will be able to get on the computer without him hovering over my shoulder all the time, but That will take some time. Anyhow, I will leave my gallery up and whatnot. If you send me notes or comments it'll take a looooong time for me to reply, because I have to sneak onto the computer. So Just know that I love all of you and I will keep track of things the best I can. If your breeding to my stallions just send me the links, but I can't update anything for some time. ya all!

-Phoenix

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~PHOENIX FIRE STABLES~

Welcome to a warm and cozy atmosphere, where horses romp and play. Some are wild (so please do watch your fingers kiddies!)

*Special Stable Rules:*
Watch out for crossbreeding between horses. I.E.- any colt/grandcolt/cousin colt of Whiskey cannot be bred with him. Same goes for Kalfu. No relative of Ghede's is permitted to breed with him.
Crossbreeding is perfectly fine and most welcome!

Stallions:

~Whiskey- ([link])

*Will be breeding to one of 's mares shortly*

Statistics;
Height: 16.5 hh
Colour: White
Markings: Palomino and Black
Breed: Tobiano Stallion
Bloodlines: Stallion for stud.
~Offspring:
~Anejo~
~Vodka~
Disipline/ Personality: Whisky is from a long line of championship 'show' horses. His odd markings making this pretty boy stand out at every compitition. He's a joy to ride and watch. His gentle nature winning over a few of the judges (and even more than his fair share of mares). He is primarily used as a 'jumper' because of his long legs and incredibly even gait. So smooth a small child would have no problem staying on his fine back.
Age: 6 yrs.

~Imperial- ([link])

Statistics;
Height: 15.3hh
Colour: Light Bay
Markings: Black 'stockings' with a white 'socks' on three legs. (exception [of the white] is the right foreleg). White stripe down his nose.
Breed: Lusitanian Stallion
Bloodlines: (Stallion for Stud, no bloodlines as of yet)
Disipline/ personality: Suited for his name from the day he was born. This guy has been a show stopper for all his life. Used for various skills he can be used for dressage, jumping, and trail riding. His firey disposition can be a bit 'flared' at times, so small children should be avoided. He has all the classic characteristics of a 'warhorse'. Proud stance and regal carriage helps!
Age: 5 yrs.

~Karel- ([link])

Statistics;
Height: 16.9hh
Colour: Chestnut
Eyes: warm honey
Markings: Black nose and thick black feathering (feathering has a slight curl) on all four legs. There is also a patch of thin feathering beneith his jaw that is a deep chocolate brown (he will pass on all dark feathering to any of his offspring).
Breed: Dutch Draft
Bloodlines: Stallion for stud. (no current offspring)
Disipline/ Personality: Karel, like most Dutch drafts is a friendly and willing 'work horse'. He has a kind temperment and willing nature that will drive him to work as hard as he can to plough a field or pull a stump from the ground. He has also been harnass trained so he may be hooked up to a carriage and pull for miles.
Age: 5 yrs.

*special notes on this stallion* Karel does not have a long flowy tail. Its actually a very short whisp of fluff the same color as his mane.


~Diablo- ([link])


Statistics;
Height: 15.2hh
Colour: Palomino (base)
Eyes: Green hazel
Markings: Dark brown face and zebra striping on muzzle, down neck and on his legs and hindquarters. Also some white patches on legs and up hindquarters from Diego's markings. He also has a red strip following his spine.
Mane and Tail: Starts out crimson darkening to black.
Breed: Mix of mustang(?) and Zorse
Bloodlines: Stallion- Offspring of Zohra and 's Diego
Disipline/ Personality: He has a firey temper for sure! However he has to be riled up, or someone has to push the wrong buttons for him to get mean. Mostly this pretty fellow is used for basic trail riding because of his stubborn temperment inherited from his mother. He's been used for a few shows as well, as a jumper.
Age: 5 yrs.


~Kalfu- ([link])
****NOT CURRENTLY OPEN FOR BREEDING****

Statistics;
Height: 16hh
Colour: White, red, and black
Eyes: golden green
Markings: Lots!
Seriously though, Red throat and face with black designs over it, white striping from zebra heritige present on neck and on legs. Black hindquarters with red coming to a point just below the midpoint. Red forelegs with black coming up to a point just below the kneejoint. Vever (symbol) of his name on his chest.
Mane and Tail: Alternating stripes of red,white, and black.
Breed: Mix of otherworldly steed and Zorse
Bloodlines: 's Ghede x Zohra
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Kalfu- Stallion(will be open to breeding soon, send me a note of interest please)
Disipline/ Personality: A trickster, known for humor, rule breaking, boundry crossing, deciet, lawlessness, and sexuality. However, he is also the guardian of communication who must first be called before you may speak to the one you seek at all. The keeper of the keys and crossroads who stands at the boundries of all things in the universe and in the lives of people, as well as the only Orisha who understands all languages both cosmic and mundane without whom all contact with the ultima creator would be lost. A powerful and dangerous master of the baleful Loa who, when he shows up in a ceremony, must be met with silence less he let dark spirits loose, that would not otherwise come near the rites. And in some cases can cause transformations in those foolish enough to displease him. He is the Iwa of the night and his symbol is the moon. Controller of the malevolent spirits of the night.
Not your average 'riding horse' He's wild and untamed as the otherworld he works within.
Age: 5 yrs.


~Jehestar- ([link])

Statistics;
Height: 17hh
Colour: Silver Grullo
Markings: Rust with a facial tattoo.
Breed: Bacabello
Bloodlines: Stallion for stud. (starter, no bloodlines)
~Offspring:
Disipline/ Personality: Jehestar is a shy boy, can be quite reclusive and 'bit-shy'. However when he spots the ring set up with barrels he's ready to go. His flashing coat reflecting as he dodges and spirals around them fanicfully as you please. One could swear that he can turn on a dime! If you want foals with grace, but a not too showy personality he's the stud for your mare. He holds no telikinetic nor immortal blood. Other than his firey markings he's a normal horse.

He will pass on the Bacabello trait to his offspring, please read the entire FAQ and breed sheet by if breeding to him so you can understand all this entails.

Age: 9yrs.


~Aodahn- [link]

Statistics;
Height: 11hh
Colour: Silver Bay
Eyes: Honey
Markings: Black stockings and nose, silver streaks from around his eyes to his nose.
Breed: Modern American Shetland Pony
Bloodlines: Stallion for stud. (starter, no bloodlines yet)
Disipline/ Personality: His life started in a petting zoo, where he was ignored for the most part until swooped in and saved him from that dire fate. At her stable he was nurtured back to health to grow amongst other horses and adjusted fairly well. He was eventually adopted by me and he's fared quite well since, growing to be a strong and healthy horse. His attitude is quite like his name, firey! Though he's always playful and good-natured around children he doesn't like men AT ALL! He gets along great with the other stallions and is jokingly reffered as the 'mascot' for Phoenix Fire Stables. He's a real pleasure for children to ride.
Age: 7 yrs.



Mares:

*Lullaby- ([link])

Statistics;
Height: 16 hh
Colour: Blue Roan
Markings: Black 'oints' on face, ears, and legs. Cresent moon and stars shapes on her rear on her left side only.
Mane and Tail: Very dark 'chocolate' with silver tips.
Eyes: Lavender
Breed: Tennesee Walking Horse
Bloodlines: Filly (has not been bred yet)
Disipline/ Personality: Despite her name, Lull is a very frisky girl! Her flashy colors and flashy showmanship has won her a few awards on the barrel riding championships. She's a high class, high stepper with beautiful action. An absolute joy to watch her in motion folks. Holding 'true' blue roan coloration with only the markings on her rear setting her above and beyond most 'dappled' varieties.
Age: 5 yrs.

Loanable?: She sure is, just kick a note my way. BTW, I want piccys of the offspring. However, if you are lent the services of her, YOU are free to keep the offspring, but I get to use said offspring if desired for one breeding.


*Zohra- ([link])
****CLOSED FOR BREEDING PURPOSES TILL NEXT SEASON****

Statistics;
Height: 14.9 hh
Colour: White
Markings: Splotches of light chestnut with dark black/brown zebra striping.
Eyes: Emerald
Breed: Zorse (offspring of Arabian/Pinto cross Mare to Zebra Stallion)
Bloodlines: Filly
Offspring:
~Diablo~
Disipline/ Personality: Like Most Zorses, Zohra has her moments of unpredictability. She can be shy around strangers but perfectly comfortable with humans and other horses she has 'bonded' with. She has been trained in western riding and english riding styles. With her Arabian heritage, she carries herself much like nobility, with her tail held high like a flag.
Age: 5 yrs.
Loanable?: Certainly. As long as she is in season.


*Offspring of my Stallions*:
(Owned by the Mare's owner, produced by the artist mentioned)

~Anejo:

Screamer X Whiskey- Stallion ([link])
Belongs to at Winddrinker Clearwater Stables.

~Vodka:

Combat Angel X Whiskey- Filly
([link])
Belongs to of Clearview Wind Stables.


Offspring of my Mares :

~Diablo: (Now avalible for Stud)
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DiegoXZohra- Stallion ([link])


~Kalfu: (Not open yet)
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GhedeXZohra- Stallion ([link])
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***Contact Phoenix (me) through a note if interested in breeding to Whiskey, Imperial, Karel, Diablo, Kalfu, Jehestar, or Aodhan ***

This is 's journal, which I'm in total agreement with. If you'd like to comment on anything written here Look at her journal itself. This is just her journal and I'm sharing it with everyone who cares to read it because it describes alot that has to do with me. It's very well written and thought out and I believe that more people should read it and be aware.

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I was just surfing ridiculously around the internet and managed to stumble upon quite the drama fest. It's a rather long story, and I don't want to point any fingers or name names. The curious thing that struck me about the whole ordeal was the accusation that, if you have a fursona, you are a furry, and that's a big deal. It got me thinking about escapism in general, and various themes and misinformation around the internet. Combined with a few things I'd been thinking of otherwise, I decided to write a journal.

So what's the big deal with fursonas, anyhow? What the heck are they? For some people, it's the person they want to be. A sentient cartoon animal? Just an animal? I don't know. I don't really converse with people about it much.

For me, it's just goofing around. I like to draw animals. Back when I was uploading at TLKFAA exclusively (I didn't know DA existed), it was the only way to get your voice inside an image, drawing yourself as a big cat or some other African animal. I know self insertion is pretty lame, but it's relatively harmless, and I was like... 16 at the time. It's not as though I dislike people, or drawing them. I just don't like drawing myself (it feels weirder to have a real visual representation of me) and I'm still working on getting my figures up to snuff.

But do I really want to be a lynx? No way. When I was three, I thought I was a cat, or at least I liked to pretend to be one, but I'm glad to be a human with human companions. Animals make great friends, but intellectualizing is important to me. I'm a human person who desires human company. I really miss having a pet around the house, but if I had to choose, I am sure I'd choose my brother, mother, and human friends.

I wouldn't even want to become an anthro if I had the chance. I think maybe some people have the delusion that the world would be a cooler place and they'd be cooler too if only we were all anthro, or if only we lived in the Kingdom Hearts Universe, or Pirates, or Star Wars, or who knows what; but the sad fact is, we'd all still have really stupid problems, and the people who don't attempt to accomplish anything of value would continue to accomplish nothing. Attractive people would still be attractive, and unattractive, antisocial people would still be unattractive and antisocial. We would have the same issues, the same malfunctions. It wouldn't matter if we had fur or awesome Japanese-pop outfits. And we'd have no idea that our world is 'special' because we'd be used to it.

Maybe somewhere out there in an alternate universe some sad cat is wishing he were human because all the other cats pick on him for being weird. But his internal problems would still be the same. There's no use wishing for something like that, especially when it diverts energy that we could be expending on ourselves in the real world, to fix our problems and make us better people. Sad cat just needs to get off the internet and start sorting through his troubles.

Another really wild thing I've heard is that a person who has a fursona or draws furries is attracted to animals. I assume the person who mentioned it meant sexually attracted to animals, but she just said 'attracted'.

I don't know about the rest of you, but I don't draw to get myself off. Or anyone else, for that matter. Perhaps for someone who's thinking constantly about sex, seeing an animal person is an immediate offense. I've placed before them something they wouldn't care to pleasure themselves to, and they're offended that I (they project) would. Or perhaps they've seen so much of it (although I don't know why they'd be looking) they assume any person who draws anthro does so on the grounds that they feel lust for their subject-matter.


When I'm making a new piece of artwork, I'm not relating the figure in it to myself sexually. That's not what drawing is about for me. And I really don't feel as though many of my pictures are sexually inviting, even when you're looking for it. Once upon a time, I dabbled in pornographic imagery because I was still an adolescent, and that sort of thing is fascinating to adolescents, who are very impressionable besides, but I quickly outgrew it, and only very rarely decide to try an erotically-themed piece from time to time. None of them are meant to invite the viewer into the image as a participant, or to imply that the purpose of the image is to physically excite someone. As popular is the trend is, I find it fairly shallow. I especially don't dig smut that reduces a person or animal person to a toy for someone's perverse pleasure. I feel as though I can come up with better ideas than that. Even an image that involves sexuality doesn't need to be so base as that.

Artwork aside, I'm afraid that the only animals I'm genuinely attracted to are real human males, roughly my age. I am not attracted to drawings, cartoon animals, cartoon people, or even various movie stars or other persons that are as good as pretend because I will never meet them. Lusting after a person or persons, or animal people who don't exist or are impossibly out of one's reach seems like it would be emotionally numbing. I understand why it's so appealing to people. A person who doesn't exist can't hurt you, can't reject you, and you can pretend happily ever after so long as you want (or so long as you are willing to draw pictures), but that's awfully hollow. I'm much more interested in flawed, difficult, real people with whom I can interact in a meaningful way, despite how tiring and unpleasant they can sometimes be.

But I'm not going to talk dirt about people who wish they were animals or jedi or organization members. They've got problems they're trying to deal with, same as everyone; they just pick an unusual way of going about it. Their escapism sticks out more than other people's, or maybe they have more to escape from. In comparison to all of the really horrible, destructive outlets they might have chosen, self-insertion, mary-suedom, and pretending to be another species aren't all that bad.

And not everyone who draws an original character or decides they might draw themselves as a different animal other than human are really so disengaged from reality. Art is fun because you don't have to play by the rules. Besides, a little bit of escapism isn't necessarily bad. People need some kind of fantasy life, just so long as it doesn't take over their real one. It's just goofing around, saying 'what if?'. What if I were a pretty horsey? What if I got to be in a Final Fantasy game? What if this character I made up killed Elizabeth Swann brutally but Will Turner fell in love with her anyway?? 8D

Granted, I don't have a lot of time for that, being a full time artist, and most working persons have better ways to spend their free time, but I remember being in high school and having enough time to do homework, goof off with my friends, eat, sleep, AND draw plenty of mary sues.

Now, I'm not talking about genuinely ethically unsound practices or inclinations that seem to pop up from time to time, but just your average silly stuff that people seem to get so annoyed with. I'm willing to bet most of those who indulge in these activities will grow out of them. It's nothing to get excited about or angry over.

And that's my pocket change for the evening. It's really late, and time to go to sleep.

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